Perspective

I am sitting here going through photos.  One by one the moment of that time is touched. The joy of my children is what keeps me on track.  Their growth, my growth, their smile, my smile.   So much life has been lived, so much love.

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The grief strikes this time, unexpected, not anticipated, I have wanted to embrace the photo sorting for my kids, to give them a visual of their life.  To connect them to their life as young children,  before their dad died.

The marker is deep, its no longer a trench of oozing goo, time has helped. Yet, today I have to sit back and look and listen to where I am now so I stay here, present and accounted for on November 26, 2017, 12:15PM.

I am amazed at the burning in my heart, first its anger.  Then a deep sadness takes my breath away, I can’t stand it, the tears pour down my cheeks, warm tears, fresh grief.  I allow the flow of words here, my grief moves up and out to a deep sense of appreciation for everything.

I made it through the thicket, the sludge of necessary change. My kids made it too.  Has it been easy, the photos’ make it seem so.  They tell a story about love, acceptance, joy and change.

It has not been easy, its been worth it and necessary.

To be the woman I am today,  for all that is flowing to me and through me, to give my children as well as the new family I am a part of now,  I must change, embrace me and change.  To stand grounded, confident and at peace knowing I am enough, I did enough and that is all there is.

Within the grief of death there is more, the grief of my childhood, I stopped the generational system of abuse. I confronted it, face forward, protecting myself and my children. I am always amazed when I look at photos, the change in me, the beauty and light shining through as time passes.  The peace within me shining through my eyes is a wonderful validation of grace.

I have faced my life experience and done the very best I know how to take responsibility for the behaviors created to survive that did not support thriving. I have faced change and let go of so much, behaviors, people, places and things. In that process I am who I am now.  I cannot forget to honor the journey.

Do those moments of not knowing how to feel or react or express occur now, yes, they do. Today the emotions were fresh and flowing.

I am so grateful, to be here, this moment, this breath, for me, my health, all my children,  and my husband for he stands next to me and honors all that I am.

Embracing thriving, now I see, what I needed to see in those photos.  There was joy through the sorrow.  There was love honoring the anger and sadness. And there was grace and forgiveness.

Perspective.

Thank you for reading my hearts expression.

Peace to you in all that you do.

Namaste’

 

Doubting our Doubt

Thinking and thinking and thinking about things and stuff, our doubt.  What is doubt, it is feeling uncertain, or lack of confidence or hesitation.  Doubting our doubt.

Transitions are ever ongoing. In one day we go through a life time of emotions and experiences.  What we forget is exactly that..that we must stop for a moment and listen to our heart, our breath.

Our exterior world can wreck havoc on our inner world.  What I must remind myself often, is how grateful I am for where I am at this moment this breath.

Is it easy to remember to do that.. I would love to say that I have mastered it.  I have not however I do repeat kind words to myself, such as “I forgive me, or I love and approve of myself, or I am radiant being filled with Light and Love”

I picture those I love in my minds eye and wish them peace and send forgiveness and grace to those whom I have let go of.

All of these exercises remove the doubt, the spinning thoughts, the doubt that can make my heart rate increase or frustration show up.

All I know is I must actively remember that doubt is another form of worry and worry steals joy.

Joy is what brings peace to my soul’s desire.  Bring on JOY!!!

 

Deep within

Time, after time and oh more time.  I cannot believe how quickly each moment is moving.

All I know is,  I continue to let go of what does not serve,  Beauty and Peace has moved in.

What does that look like in a day, gratitude comes quick and shows up in the most unexpected places. This time of year nature slows down to rest and honor the harvest of the year.  Honor you, honor what you do not like and let it go. Honor you, honor what you love and appreciate and let it go.

I wish that I knew where to start, to share all that has transpired in the past few moments, months, and years.

I am making promise to myself to write, to share and to honor the gifts within my heart.

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What will you do for you?  What do you wish for and desire?  What makes your heart sing?

Clouds, Sun, Moon and Eclipse

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Today, August 21st, 2018, is the first time in over two years that I sat down and articulated my Heart. There has been so much life lived in 730 days.. how many breaths is that?  Hmm lets see, 1,051,200 minutes.

Got a minute? Lets talk about the power of gratitude, forgiveness and letting go.

This photo above was taken during the Eclipse! The shadows look like I am standing in the clouds.

I love moments like today! Leading up to the peak of the eclipse felt was so wonderful. It has been weeks, months, years truly, leading up to this moment.

What does today represent for you?  The beginning of something new or the end of an era?

All I know is no matter what your belief, take the time today to sit and listen to the whispers of the sun and moon, for the stars hold gifts for you.

Are you Ready?

What matters is that we act, move forward, let go, trust and forgive. Repeat.

The resistance that shows up as you read this, let it go.

The doubt, just let it go.

I truly believe that we must turn away from the whispers that haunt us that keep us small.

Yes, we must face those moments of grief, but there is Love, Light and Joy waiting on the other side.

It is a breath, its saying No, or saying Yes.

Yes to Love, Yes to letting go. Yes to abundance.

Yes to health, yes to All that comes your way.

Focus on the Sun and Moon, and the clouds will part ways.

May you always know the Beauty of you, Honor the gifts you bring and Laugh and Laugh and Laugh some more.

In Loving Joy,

Shannon

Brand New!!

Brand New!!

It is so fun to Feel Brand New!

How do I get to that Place?

I would love to say I feel that way everyday.

Yet, sometimes I have to clear out the messy stuff.

Clean house.

Let go!

Get rid of the stuff, you know.

Painting, scraping or digging will clear the sludge.

So will getting rid of old clothes.

And yes, for me, all of those things help…

Yet, writing and walking and writing some more are the

catalyst that moves out what must go.

I use all of my healing tools, they are fantastic and

could not truly imagine life without them.

Yet, however, yet, at the end of the day,

we must move forward once the healing has occurred.

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Bring on the Light.

I feel Brand New!

Ready to Sing, Dance and Play.

Perspective, Perception and Perceiving

Sunday’s quiet, sweet and full of still moments.

I spend my time with my wonderful companion, my friend, my husband.

He brings so much to me, to my life and a perspective of perception and

what we perceive.

I used to think they were all the same, they are not.

The line between them is thin and we must learn that it is discernible.

As we learn to do so, we learn about ourselves, that is, if we are truly open to change.

One of the most powerful gifts of wisdom I have learned from him is how to “trust” my perception, honor what I know about myself and what I am perceiving.

How did he teach me this?

By “being” himself, and I listen, observe and am open to how he responds to me and how he lives his life.

Who brings wisdom to you, simply because of who they are?

Are you willing to receive it? Do you trust what your perceiving?

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What do these words mean?

Perspective, how we see things.

Perception, the result of how we perceive which leads us to another question, what then is perceiving?

Perceiving: discernment, understanding, recognizing, becoming aware of.

Do you see the Fish in the Image?

The challenge is listening, observing, and releasing what we want or need so we may embrace the information that is being shown to us.

For true growth must come from a place of knowing how we are being perceived by others, the impact we have and how we are being responded to.

I am transparent which can be very difficult.  You know the person that “wears their heart on their shirt sleeve” or “those that are so sensitive” Well, thats me.

It is very hard to be with others who are out of integrity, another words, not congruent with what they say, you know, walking the their talk.

Through my journey I have learned, how we are with our money, touches All parts of our lives.

How are your perceptions, perspective and what your perceiving impacting your relationship with money?

Take a look at the classes I have offered and discern if one of them is for you.

May your heart be open to all the Beauty and Joy that surrounds you this lovely Sunday.