Patience, Timing and Joy

Not certain what I am waiting for or if I am waiting., or walking, moving forward.

Listening.

Life is full, filled with empty spaces, the more I listen, Love expands, Gratitude holds me.

I follow the path I “think” I “must” follow out of obligation and fear. It is a dead end, each time I reach out to move forward, there is no response, like a lover who has grown tired, weary..uninterested.

I keep listening, walking along and stop by the river, the flow of Joy overwhelms. I open my heart and release the resistance and receive it.

The path keeps moving, I wander, look behind me, hope this is the right way or worry, what if this is the right path? I let go of fear, the obligation, the old fear. Movement comes easy, I stay grounded, centered, honest in honor of me and all that I am.

It feels flat, dry, yet crisp and full of Light. I am called to let go of the “redo” of old patterns and grasping at dreams long lost. It is not a dead end or a dream lost, it is The dream coming from Divine Light into Form.

I must be patient, kind and honoring of what flows through me as I write.

I feared, stressed and focused on not Being noticed or Seen.

Hiding what I so deeply desire to do.

Its timing, my heart, the Divine, what I ask for, I hear music, it beings great joy and a fresh sense of youth rises deep within from my heart.

I am focused on editing, writing, editing and then waiting, the treasure. The path where wisdom resides grace and gratitude ever present.

I am fully aware now of how I mastered shaming myself, punishing holding back because somebody somewhere just might not like me or I offend them or they don’t believe me or no one reads my messages of love and grace.

Today now this moment, I don’t care anymore, I gotta go!

I gotta write, for me and for the souls that just might find what I share a breath of joy, laughter, comfort and I open the door of curiosity, grace and Play!!

In honor of the many who have walked with me, protected, supported, guided, loved, prayed for, honored, encouraged, trusted and saw in me who I have become, the woman I am now in this single breath of change.

I am Letting go, surrendering, asking, waiting, forgiving self and others. Openness, wondering and allowing.

Allowing the desire of me the essence and grace of me within to be seen.

All of it!!

Time is ever moving.

I am here, open, moving forward and writing.