Words are difficult to articulate my Heart
The unfolding path
Letting go and embracing the unknown
A new awareness of who I am, why I am here
New gifts of grand measure ready to be received and honored
I breathe in to honor the life I have created that is so full of so much
Beauty!!
Growth in Love
Love in Silence
Silence in Stillness
Stillness in Grace
Grace in Joy
Joy in Love
Love in Trust
Trust in Surrender
I began this post at the beginning of March 2020 as we faced Sheltering in Place, Covid -19, a world in transformation, chaos and pain.
The truth continues to be revealed as right action follows.
Today, September 15, 2022, the world is different in profound and welcomed ways.
An Awakening, we continue to witness.
The Death of so much and so many.
Comfort during these times of loss and transformation is difficult.
We are embracing a new face, one that welcomes All and is long overdue.
Our old and worn out ideas, beliefs and behaviors are being called to embrace the truth of Love.
False systems are falling away, it is time.
Divine Love continues to break open hearts, not easy yet necessary.
How do we change and embrace a new story and let go of the old one?
How do we know what is ours?
Where do we even begin?
So many questions, so much uncertainty.
Do we just keep plugging away, out of resentment, denial or the fear to say yes and to be seen?
What does that even mean, look like or feel within in our hearts to allow the fear to fall away?
We must slow down, listen to our breath and feel our lungs expand and contract.
Face the Fear.
Jump in and walk through the illusion to the other side.
We may have done this many times in our lives and have forgotten the courage deep within to take a chance and make a change.
I have spent my life growing to become a new me, a different woman, a woman, I am sure was in there somewhere.
The woman, the one who I have been looking for has been there all along.
Waiting for me to notice her, the me within, the one who’s fierce, kind, courageous and ready to be seen.
I am a woman filled with a bounty of miracles and so much more.
It is time now this very second to stand in confidence, honoring the old story, letting it go and stepping forward embracing the new of the new of the newest.
May the stories that no longer serve you be honored, surrendered and a new one written, just for you by you in service to Love.
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We cross the threshold when we realize that resisting is
more difficult than making the change itself.
I love to Teach…
a Doorway
I avoided with an exhausting amount of energy.
The most Beautiful part;
The part I was so afraid of;
was How easily the process Flows.
I have created a healing process that embraces our relationship with Money and
Our relationship with Ourselves.
Many experience harsh financial situations.
Widows, widowers, divorce and so many other changes bring many questions about
our relationship with money.
The chaos becomes larger when we do not realize it is our view, belief and emotions
about our of money
How we feel about ourselves and how it shows up in our relationship with money.
I address our feelings about Money, Living and Death.
How we care for ourselves and live fully where we are at today, this moment.
So…
Step through the door.
The river of change Flows Easily…
…….with amazing power and Grace.
Looking forward to meeting you.
A circle?
Are they patterns that move in tandem with change?
Spiral:
A three-dimensional curve that turns around an axis at a constant or continuously varying distance while moving parallel to the axis: a helix
Circle:
A closed plane curve consisting of all points at a given distance from a point within it call the center
When we contemplate our path, we discover we are walking in a spiral, yet can feel like a circle.
No matter what we are letting go; a job, a relationship, an addiction or the loss of someone we love, grief is there, it never goes away, it simply moves and changes.
Over time we welcome the new ways of being, new relationships, new perspectives.
The death of our old self can be seen in the death of old relationships.
If we are willing to honor All the transition provokes within us, Light and Joy surrounds us and brings new perspectives, behaviors and so much more.
Death brings, a form of gratitude for the hard conversations with whom we love, especially those intimate relationships we have with ourselves.
The most difficult within those moments is the acceptance of where we are on the spiral.
The perspective is new each time around.
Our vision is clearer when we take a moment to observe, to walk the spiral, to notice where we have been, where we are at now and embrace
All of who we Are..with an Open Heart
We discover within Peace, Gratitude, Humility and Joy.
Sorrow reflects the depth of our Joy.
Joy reflects the depth of our Sorrow.
I am being called once again to embrace the walk, the spiral.
To observe, honor, appreciate all that I have witnessed, experienced, survived and Become with Gratitude and Grace.
I am sitting here going through photos.
One by one the moment is touched.
The joy of my children keeps me on track.
Their growth, my growth, their smile, my smile.
So much life lived, so much love.
Grief strikes, unexpected, unanticipated.
I embraced the photo sorting for my kids.
To give them a visual of their young life and connect them to their dad Before he died.
The marker is deep, no longer a trench of oozing goo, time has helped.
Yet, today I sit back, look and listen to where my heart is now.
I am amazed at the burning in my heart, first the anger then a deep sadness takes my breath away, I can’t stand it, the tears pour down my cheeks, warm fresh grief.
I allow the grief to move up and out with a deep sense of appreciation for everything.
I made it through the thicket, the sludge of necessary change.
My kids made it too.
They tell a story about love, acceptance, joy and change.
It was not easy.
The photos’ make it seem so.
To be the woman I am today and continue to become,
I open to all that flows to and through me.
To give to my children, my new family, I must embrace me and change.
To stand grounded, confident and at peace knowing I am enough,
I did enough and that’s all there is.
Within the grief of death, the grief of my childhood, I stopped the generational system of abuse.
I confronted it, face forward, protecting myself and my children.
I am always amazed when I look at photos, the change in me, the beauty and light shining through as time passes.
The peace within me shining through my eyes is a wonderful validation of grace.
I have faced my life experience.
I have faced change and let go of, behaviors, people, places and things.
In that process I am who I am now.
I honor the journey.
Today the emotions are fresh and flowing.
I am so grateful, to be here, this moment, this breath, for me, my health, all my children, and my husband for he stands next to me and honors all that I am.
Embracing thriving, now I see, what I needed to see.
There was joy through the sorrow.
There was love honoring the anger and sadness.
And there was grace, gratitude, and forgiveness.
Perspective.
Namaste’
Our kitchen, expression of Love.
This crystal reflects the Love that moves with grace, ease and joy.
I have a new Heart for myself, fresh and open.
The man I married shows me the Beauty he sees in life,
The Beauty he sees within my Heart and shares Beauty with the world.
A Dance so Sacred. A Dance I am humbled to witness.
Sometimes we forget, why we are doing what we are doing.
When we decide to stop and listen to our Hearts, to what we need,
We notice all that is within us and then we see the crystalline love that surrounds us.
We all have a journey like non – other. The gifts from our experiences remind us we have a responsibility to listen to what is within.
My life has been extraordinary.
It is full of incredible Joy, Sorrow and Love.
Sometimes, we just don’t want to do more growing, learning, grieving or have one more experience that calls us to stretch our hearts open.
Honestly, sometimes we just want to have fun!!
Who wants to wash out the dirty laundry.
But once we clean out the closet and toss what we don’t need or Never liked or no longer fits.. We feel fresh, open and ready for something wonderful, sweet and full of Grace.
I have committed to honor myself.
If I cannot do that then how can I honor others?
Have you committed to honoring you? Have you noticed?
Have you made the decision to honor All of who you are, especially the parts that you would rather not think about or for that matter even accept.
Consider, Acceptance, Gratitude.
Consider Grace, Love and Forgiveness.
Consider, Opening up. Love in the Air!!
Transform….Letting Go
Trust…..Receiving
Giving……Being
Stillpoint…….Forgiveness
Love…….Laughter
Time………Time to
Play
Time to
Love
Time……To “Be”
Allow, let go and breathe and then what.. you ask?
Surrender. Forgive. Let Go.
Find Gratitude for every experience from a cup of coffee, to sharing time and space with someone you love and especially for those times that feel like they won’t ever end.
The past few weeks have pressed, pushed, and pulled out every ounce of resistance I did not know I had or thought I worked through or just did not want to acknowledge was even mine.
Resistance to what, I wanted to know, what I was shown was resistance to resistance.
Resistance, to honor me, those I love, my gifts.
I was resisting.
So, I stopped. listened, watched and asked for guidance.
It was there, before my eyes, the lack of sleep and the desire to just run.
The desire to run, is a sign to let go, allow and surrender.
It does not matter what is causing resistance or why its happening.
The most important part is that we notice, our emotions, our body, our behavior.
The why we are doing and the what we are doing in the moment.
I had to ask to listen, to let go, to trust.
Never easy, painful yes, always necessary.
Large decisions shifted in a direction unexpected, unsettling, yet exciting.
Letting go of resistance served up the change.
Once we embrace being open and surrender, the gift drops in, we have a new view of ourselves.
We make changes in our life some seemingly subtle yet profound.
Growth and expansion of our hearts come when we we ask for help.
When we speak out loud “I receive, I am ready”.
The old shields of protection fall away as they no longer work.
The Love that is being called in cannot be received nor honored if we do not accept the Grace of all that is occurring within our lives.
Love the resistance, the pain, the fear and then let it all go.
Regardless of what we believe we are always protected.
And then the path has changed, another unexpected gift.
May the road be wide and full of adventure.
Namaste’
Not certain what I am waiting for or if I am waiting., or walking, moving forward.
Listening.
Life is full, filled with empty spaces, the more I listen, Love expands, Gratitude holds me.
I follow the path I “think” I “must” follow out of obligation and fear. It is a dead end, each time I reach out to move forward, there is no response, like a lover who has grown tired, weary..uninterested.
I keep listening, walking along and stop by the river, the flow of Joy overwhelms. I open my heart and release the resistance and receive it.
The path keeps moving, I wander, look behind me, hope this is the right way or worry, what if this is the right path? I let go of fear, the obligation, the old fear. Movement comes easy, I stay grounded, centered, honest in honor of me and all that I am.
It feels flat, dry, yet crisp and full of Light. I am called to let go of the “redo” of old patterns and grasping at dreams long lost. It is not a dead end or a dream lost, it is The dream coming from Divine Light into Form.
I must be patient, kind and honoring of what flows through me as I write.
I feared, stressed and focused on not Being noticed or Seen.
Hiding what I so deeply desire to do.
Its timing, my heart, the Divine, what I ask for, I hear music, it beings great joy and a fresh sense of youth rises deep within from my heart.
I am focused on editing, writing, editing and then waiting, the treasure. The path where wisdom resides grace and gratitude ever present.
I am fully aware now of how I mastered shaming myself, punishing holding back because somebody somewhere just might not like me or I offend them or they don’t believe me or no one reads my messages of love and grace.
Today now this moment, I don’t care anymore, I gotta go!
I gotta write, for me and for the souls that just might find what I share a breath of joy, laughter, comfort and I open the door of curiosity, grace and Play!!
In honor of the many who have walked with me, protected, supported, guided, loved, prayed for, honored, encouraged, trusted and saw in me who I have become, the woman I am now in this single breath of change.
I am Letting go, surrendering, asking, waiting, forgiving self and others. Openness, wondering and allowing.
Allowing the desire of me the essence and grace of me within to be seen.
All of it!!
Time is ever moving.
I am here, open, moving forward and writing.
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